I'm rúúúnning, with tears in my eyes!

Charming Lamb commented she spent many runs with tears streaming down her face, hoping passersby would think it was sweat. It made me think of this depressing song about the end of the world: 'I'm dancing with tears in my eyes,' only then it would be: 'I'm rúnning with tears in my eyes.'

I must admit I've never run crying, but maybe I should! You know, just to try something new once in a while. I'm just worried that people will see I'm not sweating but crying, because I'm not a pretty crier.

Not for me the gentle pouring down of tears. My face crumples up, gets all red and my mouth draws in this gaping rectangle. Then again, I'm not a pretty runner either. My face crumples up from exertion, gets all red and my mouth draws in this gaping rectangle. So who would know the difference?

Besides: why do I care so much that people see me crying? I suppose I don't want them to know I'm vulnerable; I prefer to keep up a good front. Then again, a good cry relieves a lot of tension, just like running. So maybe when I do them both at the same time I'll become all mellow yellow.

So maybe I wíll run crying sometime, just to see what it feels like.

Now if only I can find someone to make me cry...
Hmm, I know! I'll just start a conversation with one of Jans teachers at school!

5 comments

K and/or K said...

It's your run and you can cry if you want to!

I would cry if I ran, because I'd be so depressed at the 50 feet I was able to make it.

Melly said...

Hey, I just started running and found your blog. Love it. Consider yourself bookmarked!

3 Bay B Chicks said...

It is funny, isn't it? People's tendency to hide themselves away when they cry. Why do we do that? I have never really thought about it before. I am always running for cover when I feel myself "welling up." I suppose it is only natural to conceal our vunerabilities!

I have cried while running. It is exhausting, but effective. You are completely wiped out, both physically and emotionally...in my case, ready to face the world again.

-Francesca

PS: Just say no to Jan's teachers!

Aka Alice said...

I'm also like you. I don't want people to see me cry, but I've run and cried a few times...it's cathartic and after the run, I felt so much better...

Veronica Lee said...

just stopping by your blog to say hi!

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